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I HIT 1K time for baby's first questions meme!!!! come at me.

I only play this fucker.

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80 YEARS LATER, POL FINALLY GETS TO THIS.................. INCREDIBLE i'll try to tl;dr 4 u

Star!!1

Yato doesn't really have any 'important people' at this point, but there are people he is ssstarting to care about, and she might be at the top of that list. Accidentally; it mostly has to do with traumaprom. PRIOR TO THE GAME she was just someone fun to tease and try to extort money from?? NOTHING REALLY SERIOUS. And before it, he hadn't really been through anything awful - he'd seen the team suffer during his first trauma game shortly after he arrived, but that was more inconvenient to him at that point than anything - he was party to her suffering this time, and that made it much more personal. He wasn't traumatized by it by any stretch, but it was certainly a sobering experience.

Although he wasn't willing to die for her, he didn't have any particular desire to watch her die either; losing one of the only people he knows here would suck probably. And maybe, y'know, he did recognize how incredibly shitty it was that she had to decide to die because he wouldn't do the same for her. So he made an offer (what he's afraid of is de-existing - temporary pain, he can deal with), which made her grateful, which was important in and of itself, but it also failed - it meant he kept his arm, but it also meant that by that point he was sure all he could do for her was off her quickly. But she wanted to sit and talk for a little while instead, which was... strange to him. He didn't really feel like he was much use in that capacity, but there it was, and it did mean getting up close and personal with coping process of someone about to die. Gross. And then her sad corpse became his responsibility, along with the entire team thanks to her wish... which he was maybe slightly useful for. And she wasn't even mad at him for any of this?? He doesn't get it, but he's not inclined to question it.

Star is someone he thinks of as selfless, to a stupid extent; whether or not she's as self-sacrificial as he assumes, he's reached the conclusion over the past couple weeks that she must be the sort who puts others' safety first. He's not about to condone helpless teenage girls running headlong into danger - like, towards, say, knife-wielding maniacs -- and he's firmly of the opinion that she should be more concerned about herself. After all, she's clearly a magnet for misfortune. In the time he's known her she lost an arm, gotten the plague, died (even if that one's kinda on him...), been jumpy and possibly possessed, Ella Enchanted, strangled and concussed... it doesn't matter that she had no control over much of it GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER, GIRL or he might start to worry. Likewise, her tendency to stepford smile is probably going to become something he'll actively try to discourage, because fake smiles are useless. He can't really tell at this point how much of her cute bubbly energetic personality is just her, and how much is a front - stop that.

Of course she's still someone he'd gleefully and unapologetically torment if it benefits him in some way and he's not going to go out of his way to please her for the sake of it or try to concern himself with her personal problems. Don't worry!! Honestly, he hardly knows anything about her outside of what he's seen firsthand. But she does already hold a bit of power over him. To start with, she's one of the few people he thinks he can rely on to remember him - which translates into him stalking NEEDING HER ATTENTION. And then there's the fact that she's one of the few people who's expressed genuine gratitude towards him, which really does mean something, especially right now. He might be careless and selfish, but by default, he's motivated by the desire for praise and acknowledgement, via granting wishes or whatever. It was the reason he continued to murdergod (dad was proud of him!!) and also why he eventually changed gears. She hasn't heaped praise on him or anything by any means, but she's still acknowledged him for things he's done-! He doesn't have any other source of validation, and it's a new thing for him in Kyr. So while it's not THAT intense right now, if she were to keep it up . . .

He's in a weird place right now where he's willing to accept that he might only be good for murder because he wants to believe he's good for something and that's all he has proof of, but he also knows that that wouldn't make her or probably anyone else in Kyr happy - if no one would wish for it or praise him for it, there's no point - so he has... no purpose?? HE'S A GOD OF NOTHING. Which is why at this point he might even become a kitchengod for her if she motivates him properly, because he has no idea what the fuck he's actually supposed to be doing.

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Yatoball is a gross sweaty loser, stop stalking her, bye

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I'LL FOLLOW YOU UNTIL YOU LOVE ME